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a good sport is a team player


The first rule of the game is that it is not a game.
Everyone must play.
You must love us.
You must go on living.
Be yourself, but play a consistent and acceptable role.
Control yourself and be natural.
Try to be sincere.
(Alan Watts)


Gloria may not be his best film, but anything with Gena Rowlands is better than anything else, except pie. She is one of few actors who can authentically convey more in her reactions than her actions. She shoots someone, with intent, several times. Somehow though she manages to find a more meaningful moment in the after. In fact, she instills a an entire story in that one little- I did that. Did I do that? I’m not crazy. Let me get my shit together. “Taxi!” moment. This made me want to string together hundreds of scenes of Gena Rowlands regaining her composure after losing her shit. I would play it whenever was sad or angry, or contemplating losing my shit. Then I would laugh. Then I would play it again. I did not use the subjunctive mood regarding my possible sadness as I believe I may eventually get sad. I trust this will not affect my grade. I originally used the word “impactful” in this post, but replaced it with “meaningful after finding this definition online:

September 23, 2009 Urban Word of the Day
A non-existent word coined by corporate advertising, marketing and business drones to make their work sound far more useful, exciting and beneficial to humanity than it really is. This term is most frequently used in “team building” seminars and conferences in which said drones discuss the most effective ways to convince consumer zombies to purchase crap they clearly do not need or even want.
“The board was convinced that my new ad campaign for arsenic and semen flavored lollipops for tots will be incredibly impactful and will generate heaps of sales.”

That clip is tremendous! Taxi!!!

I used to go to Cassavetes movies with my New Yorker transplant grandma in Orange County — they made her very homesick.

This is a clip from the original “Gloria,” directed by John Cassavetes starring the incredible Gena Rowlands. I loved it until I read the reviews. Apparently it’s his worst film and the kid can’t act. Well, I feel like it captures a crazy, summerish seventies Bronx moment and that the relationship between the moll and the orphan is endlessly interesting. Other clips I considered: the cab ride from NJ to see the mafia boss, the scene where the kid’s whole family gets shot, the scene where the kid calls himself “the man,” the scene in the graveyard when she pulls off her wig. . .

The quote is from The Book by Alan Watts. I heard him on the radio late one night, on some NPR affiliate a long time ago, and I thought he sounded like a genius. Maybe it was his glorious deep British accent that made him sound like knew what he was talking about. But if you dig too deep, he gets kinda soft and blurry. In this quote he is talking about what he calls a “social double-bind game” that his parents’ generation (and his generation of parents) created for their kids. The Book originally came out in 1966. He was excellent at appealing to the wounded inner child of the baby boomer. Which doesn’t mean I don’t agree with him. But some of his indignation is strangely dated. (Vintage Books, 1989)

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